Today was a big one. I did the whole breakfast thing (I am sad about the stupid french press). I drove to the general store for ice – it was a strange little place. I almost tried to find the diner in Utopia that Lee kept telling me to go to for their pie, but I resisted. I didn’t really want to be in my car. I came back to camp, washed up and read for a bit, and then I hiked the East Trail again.
Really windy today. My neighbor’s tent kept getting blown over – I fixed it once and then let it be. It made the birds soar – I saw a red-tailed hawk and some ravens just riding the waves.
The hike was filled with teenagers – I tried a little, but just couldn’t embrace it. They weren’t running and screaming and throwing things because they were thrilled to be outside, they were just being destructive assholes and none of the adults that were with them took the opportunity to teach them anything about the outdoors and how to respect nature… and the other people trying to enjoy it.
I saw a million beautiful bits of countryside today. I could stay here indefinitely, live like this indefinitely.
After dinner I soaked my feet in the Sabinal and thought some more about my tarot throw. Most of it I’ve thrown before. I’m confirming and reconfirming and confirming again the idea of self-examination, that I am what I need, that something is going to be destroyed, that there are some secrets, that I am a lion… but the part I can’t sort is the difference between home, career and love – they are all mixed up in my life and the cards reflect that… argghhhhh. I have some big choices to make, but instead, I’m going to nap and copy Barry drawings.
I JUST KEEP GOING. I DON’T STOP!
THE WIND DOESN’T AFFECT MY BIKE!